Anger
I initially intended this post to be about how angry I got with my insurance agent’s secretary. About how stupid she is. About how I had to spell my name for her five times. How I got no satisfaction. How I lost the argument with Comcast, yet again, about me being required to lease a modem. And how they called my bluff when I said I was considering DSL.
Yes, I got hot. I got a little angry.
But that’s not what this blog entry has become.
Some of you might know that I’ve been attending a very “woo woo” type church for several months. I’m still an atheist; nothing is going to change that. But it’s been interesting to share the philosophy and general good nature of the minister and some of the other speakers at the Spiritual Living Center. Their basic philosophy is that god is within us all.
One of the things I’ve been able to take away from my time shared at the church is that you have the power of change within yourself. Bad attitudes are yours. It is not the fault of other people, even if they are at fault. You have power to not let it bother you. A good dose of positivity never hurt anyone, not even a bitter, sarcastic, angry atheist.
So today, in that spirit, when I was having a bad moment at work, I tried to repeat this mantra that the minister shared yesterday. I heard it before, but yesterday, I really took it to heart.
I love you
I’m sorry
Please forgive me
Thank you
I need to start loving some of the people who make me angry on a regular basis. I need to forgive myself and them for allowing them to exert control in my life in the form of anger.
I love you. I love you. I love you
I’m sorry
Please forgive me
Thank you
ok … i’ll bite … what is a “woo-woo” type of church? i’m intrigued.
It’s the minister’s word, kinda funny. I heard her use it to caution someone to not talk any of her “woo woo” stuff to a person she was going to do a job for. She’s a doctor, no-nonsense.
Woo woo, it seems, can be interpreted as that out-there spiritual stuff. The church members actively practice meditation, for example.
Hie thee to the library and get yourself some Ralph Waldo Emerson:
“His anonymously published Nature (1836) stated his belief that one could transcend the materialistic world of sense experience and become conscious of the all-pervading spirit of the universe, and that God could best be found by looking into one’s own soul. The essay helped initiate Transcendentalism.”
having just left Elliot’s bedroom after a night of being repeatedly angry with him and letting that anger out in less than loving ways, I really needed to read this. Thank you…