Change
I don’t like to think of myself as a creature of habit. But the truth is, I am. I like things a certain way. I like my life plodding along at a predictable and comfortable pace. If there are changes, such as taking a college class here or there, I am in control.
Changes come. I’m at a point in my life where I’m a little scared. Things are piling up and I don’t know where to put them. I want to crawl into a shell and make it all go away.
I made a huge change when I uprooted myself from the midwest to come to California. A life change. And I wasn’t as scared of that change as I should’ve been. I think I was running away from boredom and an unpleasant work situation and anything would do.
Now my safety net has been yanked away and I’m trying to walk as best I can on that tight rope. I’m scared, sad and jostled out of my quiet place.
Here’s a song that has been running through my head constantly for the last several weeks. I just love the song, the lyrics, the mellowness. I only gradually thought about how I was facing some change myself.
(And I’ve seen the lyrics written a couple different ways, either changes come or change is come. I heard it as change is come, but I don’t know which is right.)
“Momma Sed” by Puscifer
wake up son o’ mine
momma got somethin’ to tell youchanges come
life will have its way
with your pride, son
take it like a manhang on son o’ mine
a storm is blowin’ up your horizonchanges come
keep your dignity
take the high road
take it like a manlisten up son o’ mine
momma got something to tell you
all about growin’ pains
life will pound away
where the light don’t shine, son
take it like a mansuck it up son o’ mine
thunder blowin’ up your horizonchanges come (changes come)
keep your dignity (keep your dignity)
take the high road (take the high road)
take it like a man (take it like a man)momma said like the rain
(this too shall pass)
like a kidney stone
(this too shall pass)
it’s just a broken heart, son
this pain will pass away
I think most of us are fearful of major life changes, to one degree or another. I think this fear only intensifies as we grow older and our desire for a “settled” life becomes stronger. The thing is, people are settling down much later than ever before. You’re right in the age bracket where people are still looking for the way they are going to live and work for the rest of their life.