42 Dreams of Arizona Bay

Searching for the question to the answer of 42.

Is school worth it?

On occasion, I wondered whether it was a good idea to return to school. Anyone who has let me blather for more than 30 seconds at them knows that I’m hanging in there, but barely. I’ve been very busy this quarter.
I don’t mind the work but I do mind never having any free time and [...]

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Reality: people are jerks

I can’t get into details. If my mother had heard of the internet, I could’ve said: Momma said, never put anything on the interwebz you don’t want to be thrown up in your face later.
Let’s just say I’m annoyed with people.
I’m annoyed with know-it-alls who don’t actually contribute anything positive to a discussion, and in [...]

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I hate it when you’re right…

… and I’m wrong.
Is it me, or just a natural human response, to get defensive when I know I’m right and you’re wrong, until I think.  And realize you’re right, and I’m wrong?
Then I feel guilty because I was so determined that I was right. Perhaps that’s a sign of maturity I’m working on, to [...]

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Another chapter closes

I drove back to the newspaper in my penultimate trip.
I was not even allowed to walk the 10 feet to HR from the security station. Everything efficient. Sign here. You can pick up your severance next week.
And there ends my career. Cold, a signature, nothing.

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Groceries in the dark

Every time I go to the grocery store during the day, I regret it. I used to go at night a lot, back when I was working.
Then I go to the store at night, and remember why I don’t like that either.

I got stared at twice, for no reason I can think of.
I watched a [...]

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Lost forever

I haven’t written much lately, nor much about my drastic career choice that has left me jobless. Maybe it’s because I have good and bad days. Maybe it’s because I’m trying to find jobs, or sometimes because I’m wallowing in misery or sheer laziness.
I’ve seen the writing on the wall for a long time. I [...]

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Lost my damned job and possibly my mind

Well, it’s official.
I’ve been steeling myself for this. I changed my mind a hundred different times. Choosing to leave my job is the most difficult decision I’ve had to make.
The company is in the process of informing people of their voluntary layoffs, and I’m sure involuntary, as well. I knew this was coming, and it [...]

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